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Thursday, August 12, 2004

Junior's. Confession.

I was pretty sad & in bad shape for the past 2 weeks.. Thr was too much emotions running in my head.. R/s, fwens, $ probs, sch, etc. Ya.. & i have to remain cheerful & happy & be nice to everyone.. Or else evryone will lyk get worried, which i don wan them too.. I'll rather be sad myself..

I recently sent the wrong signal to Charlene.. & we had a misunderstandin.. She asked e "bf" qns & i told her i'm in luv with Hazel n Calvin.. & she cried.. I felt lyk a jerk.. Worst is she cried outside Paragon.. I dunno too.. We went for a couple of movies.. Shared drinks.. Shared cabby rides.. Held hands when we walked.. Budden i do tt to all my gd fwens wad!! I hold hands with Rach, Mich, Monica, Angel too!! Maybe its reali my fault? I dunno.. I reali dunno.. I am reali scared of fallin deeply into a r/s.. I am nt someone tt will commit fully.. I need someone tt luvs mi more than i luv him/her.. sobx..

I had a talk with hazel hunni too.. It made mi feel more guilty.. Sobx.. I told her abt Charlene, & she says "Its ok dear.. At least u r honest n told mi.." Budden i can tell tt she's rather upset abt it.. Haix.. My hunni she's pretty, nice, understanding, smart, hardworkin.. All e qualities im not.. Heee.. one word from her and it relieves all my stress.. She makes mi feel happy.. She's more than a gf. She's a part of my life..

But, we seldom meet up. We can only chat on e phone. Or bump into each othr wen we're in town. Wen she's bz. Im free. Wen im bz. She's free. How to meet lyk tis?

Calvin dear is anthr person tt walked into my life.. Though i dunno him for long.. lyk arnd 2 mnths? But he's shwn so much care & concern.. He's my "bf" too.. Hee. We are confused too.. Abt our r/s..

Calvin dear don't get mad at mi.. I noe im childish most of e tyms.. Need u to do a reality check on mi.. Sendin mi encouaging sms to study harder.. Budden haha.. I stil "bu ting hua" Hee.. Sow i lost my temper at u e othr tym.. e toilet mirror broke n i gt a cut wen u called mi.. Tt's y i kup u.. Sowi k?

I promise i'll tell u wad i do, who im meetin frm nw onwards k? Evry single one.. Heee.. Don't worry.. I dont flirt arnd lo! Hmpf! Shld be u tell mi wad u doin instead lo! Grrrx.. Ya.. Esp. wen we're meeting less nw.. I really missed u k? lyk really? Esp. aft wad u did to mi lo!! Grrx.. Haha & oso all da nice tings u do lo.. thats wen i luv u.. no matter wad..