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Thursday, September 30, 2004

Junior. Is. Feeling. Lost.

Slow.. Boring.. Tired day.. Tt's how i started my day.. Im sooo tired.. Mayb due to all e activities im having.. *winkz*

Went out with Malcom today.. I am soo shagged.. Mayb i cant say he's boring? Cuz im juz sooo tired.. But he aggravated my situation by talking & talkin & talkin about himself.. EGO!

But we stil had fun today! He slipped & fell into Adidas concept store! Wahaha.. Felt soo jealous.. He bought e bag i wanted.. & a pair of sneakers too.. HmpF! Went to Paragon to eat at Larry's!!

My steak tasted soooooooooooooo delicious! Wahaha.. So juicy! Hee.. He cut out 1/3 of his share to gib mi.. Cuz i was stil hungri.. So embarassing lo.. Thnks Malcom dum dum soo much for bringing mi thr to eat.. Will be my 5th time thr le! Yay!

The bill was $240++ SOOOO EXPENSIVE!!!

We ended up at Taka's Coffee Bean.. Mal got mi a strawberry milkshake.. Eeeeeww i hated it.. Budden i stil drank it up.. Vivian came to meet mi & i left with her 1st.. Phew~

Ended up dwinkin at Acid Bar! Took soo many silly shots with her phone! Soo cool.. She got e Samsung E800! Heee.. I look sooo ugly.. Arghx.. Thnks Vivian wor! For footing e bill! *winkz*

Soooooo shagged now.. Off to shower!

Wednesday, September 29, 2004

Junior. & Top. 10. Requirements.

1. Faithful to mi. No fooling around
2. Self sufficient. Cuz i cant provide
3. Look aftr mi. 24hr full-time commitment
4. No secrets between us
5. Independant
6. Movie once a week
7. Talk on e phone every nite
8. Scold mi if im wrong
9. Pamper mi
10. S.E.X

Tt's all bah.. Nt difficult rite? Heee.. My relationships now are kinda complicated.. So many ppl.. All soo nice.. I dunno how to choose.. I don wanna choose.. Confused? Nah.. Im feeling bootylicious scandalicious flirty.. Wahaha.. *winkz*

ALL I NEED NOW IS TIME..

Tuesday, September 28, 2004

Junior. &. Shopping.

I hate one of e sickening grps in my MM. Dam kp. Dam MCP.

I hate formal.. I do nt look gd! Stop tellin im propotionate! Im nt! Grrr..

I hate ppl tt put aeroplane mi! HmpF! *hints* e Kor tt owes mi 2 Tiramisu take note*

Had a long day shopping wor.. Muahaha.. Got to know my new class gals btr bah.. Weee.. Was gay/butch looking with Mo Mo peach.. Taught dem hw to "guess punch".. Wahaha.. Drank lotsa coke wit Mosquito.. Analyzing wad to buy.. Had fun tt's all!

Hmm.. Went PS arcade! Damn du-lan! Gt this er xin perverted chee bye keep rubbing his lan jiao at my back lor.. EEEEeeeeeeeewww! I tell alot ppl le.. Thy tell mi shld shout at e person.. I dunno wor.. Nxt tym u all cum protect mi! I nd protection de! Nt lyk last tym.. Mayb i gt too used to it le.. Cnt fend for myself nw.. Sobx..

Met Darryl! Went Carefour! Dunno y.. I luv sitting in e tram! Heee.. Den bought lotsa lotsa tings.. Heee.. I luv sushi! I luv Deli potatoe! He tried to hold my hand.. Hee.. I didnt pull away.. Juz let him hold lo..

Talked to Calvin juz nw wor.. Dunno.. His almost ready to settle dwn into a r/s.. But im lyk a player nw.. Den he's scoldin mi say im flirting too much.. Heee.. & we crapped alot alot la.. I miss lying on his stomach! Wahahaha.. Dunno y.. Mayb thr's stil feelings for him left in mi.. Told him nt to wait for mi if thr is someone he lyks..

Soo angry oso! Angry! Wendy & Mo Mo say i gt no ASS! Rach, Monica, Mich & Angel oso say mi! Say im soooo skinny! & say if i go any skinnier will be lyk Paris hilton.. Junior Hilton skinny tanned chicken legs.. HmpF! Say i 1000 yr fox-spirit oso! Grrr..

Talked to Stevie on e phone too.. I dunno wor.. He seems attch'd to someone.. Lyk hiding sumthin.. Heee.. Dunno la! Dun care oso! I nt seekin r/s nw! I wan more ppl to pamper mi.. Mayb.. Deep dwn i reali need someone? Mayb im supressing it? I dunno.. I nd the s.e.x.

Heeee.. Darryl gt jealous lo.. Den he kept tickling mi.. Heee.. Abt to slp soon le.. Nw 3am.. Went out to eat juz nw.. But im stil skinny as ever lo!

Monday, September 27, 2004

Junior. & 3some?

I had a threesome today...
Wahahahahahahahahahaha...

Junior's. Luv. Theory.

If ure afraid to luv a person because of fwenship, u have 2 choices, either tell wat u feel & let the luv take place or hide the feeling under a fwenship full of pretensions. It's hard for 2 ppl to luv each other when thy live in 2 different worlds.. But wen these 2 worlds collide and become 1, tt's what you call magic!

Luv can nvr be so beautiful without fwenship... One leads to another & the process is irreversible... The best of luvers is the greatest of fwens! I like u becuz ure my fwen, & becuz ure my fwen I care, & becuz I care, I luv u. I don luv u becuz u are my friend, I luv u becuz I do!

Sometimes I've asked myself, wat would make mi happy? To think tt I have everything else, I get what I want.. Then I realized it was YOU, too bad cuz its u I can't have.. I can't choose who I'm gonna luv, but I also can't just luv who chooses to luv mi.. & u can't blame mi in choosing to luv u as much as I can't blame u for not learning to luv mi..

I'm sorry if u can't luv me the way u luv'd the one before me, so I'll let you go to find him/her and hope someday u'll see tt the one true luv ure looking for was the one who set u free...

"How can I say goodbye to someone I never had? Why do tears fall for someone who was never mine? Why is tt I miss someone I was nvr with & I ask why I luv someone who's luv was nvr mine?"

Isn't it funny we're trying to catch the attention of the one we think we luv, we hardly notice the one we're really looking for was just there. You don't notice them 'till they are in the arms of someone else...

When you luv someone, don't expect tt person to luv u back the same amount. One of u will be ahead, the other behind. It's either u catch up or the other waits.

When u luv, u must not accept anything in return, for if u do, ure not luving but investing. If u luv, u must prepare to accept pain, for if u expect happiness, ure not luving but using...

True luv hears what is not spoken, & understands what is not explained, for luv doesn't work in the mouth, nor the mind, but in the heart.. Luv is like standing on wet cement, the longer u stay the harder it is to leave.. & u can nvr go without leaving ur prints behind.. Luv doesn't have to have a happy ending, cuz luv doesn't have to end at all.

Nvr be afraid to fall in luv. It may hurt a lot, it may give u aches and pains, but if u don't follow your heart, in the end u will cry even more for not giving luv a chance.

Luv may leave ur heart like shattered glass, but keep in mind tt thr's someone who'll be willing to endure the pain of picking up the pieces so u could be whole again.

Don't luv a person like a flower, because a flower dies in season. Luv them like a river because a river flows forever...

Sunday, September 26, 2004

Junior. @. Edison's.

Went Edison's house today.. See how's Honey doin.. Den took sum pix.. This is cookie wor.. Cute rite? I luv her!

Cookie juz woke up n crawled towards mi wen i burst into e shed... & I do mean crawl.. Hee.. She's gettin FAT! Muz be Edison lo.. Feed & feed & feed..

My 2nd favorite! Blur! Heee.. Edison let mi name two onli.. Grrr.. But his soooo adorable! Have tt kind of "dazed" look..

Heee.. Juz pom pom finish Blur.. Den letting him dry out..

All e pups takin their nap wen i left..

Junior. &. Singlehood.

I did sumthing wrong yesterday.. Kinda tired wen i got back home.. Soo will elaborate abit..

Went back to town to buy more tiramisus.. I gt a craze on it.. Was at Somerset Coffee Club Express again..

Lost a forfeit wen playin games.. & Stephen gets to kiss mi for lyk 10 seconds.. It seemed forever.. Worst is i bit him.. Arghx.. Den he bit mi back.. But its nt as hardas i bit him.. Feeling sooo...

I wanna be single.. I havent had enuf fun yet.. I dun wanna be tied down by commitments.. Dun wanna be ansewrable for my actions.. I wanna be fwee!

Saturday, September 25, 2004

Junior. &. Tiramisu. Story.

Went Kinokunia with Zen ge ge.. Read up a book on "Tiramisu".

Tiramisu means "missing you" or "pick me up" in Italy. In the past, wives made cake mixed with cookies and gave it to their husbands out on the battle-field to remember them by.

To give them e spirit & will-power to make it home to their beloved ones..

If u never had a tatse of luv.. Eat a Tiramisu & u'll find out.. Its a feeling tt i'll nvr forget.. An indescribable feeling tt i shared with someone long long long time ago..

Juz sitting at a cafe dreaming.. Eating our "missing you"..

Makes mi wanna be in luv with someone all over again..

Friday, September 24, 2004

Junior. Is. Angry.

Tt's what im feeling now.. Threw away the tickets.

*Rachel took it back from the dustbin*

Someone called mi at e right time. Mayb going out with tt someone. Would this be considered flirting?

*Shrugs*

Junior. Is. Feeling. Lost.

Had a looonnggg day of project work today! Sooo tired! But very happy tt i am able to finish all my projects! Nw its time to start on my revision.. Sobx..

I found out who e anonymous person is.. Heee.. He's Sylvester.. Sowi i nvr tell u wor Xin xin.. He came up to mi and asked mi out.. Went out with him to Cathay Cine to eat my favorite baked seafood pasta! Thnks 4 the treat! Cleared up e misunderstandings too.. But aft tt i went back to school again.. Continue with mktin mngt..

*I saw the Adidas bag i wan! Arghx! Edison say he's buyin it for mi.. Dunno he say buy buy buy buy til WHERE E FUCK IS IT?! HmpF!

Now at Zen ge ge's house.. Played mah-jong.. Lost around $20.. So out of luck lately.. Waiting for Jasen to call.. He said he might nt be free to watch show tml.. Arghx.. Many thoughts running in my puny brain now..

I am sooo stoopid! I am sooo dumb! I really am.. What am i feeling now?

Thursday, September 23, 2004

Junior. Got. Molested.

TIRED... STRESSED... SORE-EYES... Rushing projects today! ICCM.. Marketing Management.. Biz-law.. Finally its over! Except Marketing Management.. Grrr..

Had a crazy day.. Haha.. Mi and Mosquito very ke-lian lo.. Had to redo 1 of our mktin mngt question.. Arghx.. Y i sooo dumb! Shittified~!

Stayed in school til 9pm juz to do projects.. Heee.. Actually watched Singapore Idol at Mac.. Sooo boring today! If know went home eat my chilli crab! muAhahaa..

Worst part of today is some FUCKER pinched my ass as i got off the train. & i dunno who the hell izzit lor! I never see anyone standing near the door! FED UP! I hate "bian tai" ppl! Grrrrr.. *Calling for eye-witnesses!!*

Hey ppl.. I gonna move blog soon.. Cuz gt weird ppl tagging my blog.. Arghx.. Someone save mi.. Tml going out with Edison to shop! I hope can go.. Cuz tml is mad rush of project again.. I wan tt Adidas bag sooo much! I miss Honey & her pups too! Dear gt his own dog le.. Shasha? Heee..

Oh ya! My own Kor got engaged yesterday. Weeeee.. I am a 18 yr old brother-in-law! Weeeeee.. Don tell u all whu's e lucky gal!

*I just recieved a sms from Gary at 1201am.. He'll be leaving for New Orleans. Dunno whr's tt.. But i didnt reply him.. I dunno wad to send too.. Arghx..*

Wednesday, September 22, 2004

Junior. &. Mad. Rush. Happy. Day!

Wahaha.. Today is a really gr8 day! I enjoyed myself! Regretted not bringing my cam out.. Or can show u all e silly tings we did today.. Wahahaha..

1st of all.. It was a sooper bz mornin! I had to rush to Laselle to submit another series of coursework! Sooooo happy i manage to finish it! Jennifer was commenting on my dressing again.. Doing my presentation in tee & jeans..

One of these days.. She will get it from mi.. But im really in a very good mood! Mayb becuz i settled lotsa tacky tacky issues.. Mayb..

Was sooo nervous! Thy were asking sooo many Qns.. I had to explain my design.. Haha.. Wanted to take pixs of wad i drew.. But i cant.. Scared ppl copy my work wad! MuAhaha..

OoOOooo~ Forgot i wore thick thick specs today! Haha.. Everyone was staring.. Til thy finally recognized mi! Skipped 1/2 of Statistics tutorial! Heee.. I lied i gt meeting on later.. But went town to meet my fwens!

Soooo long since we last gathered together! & we are really 1 noisy bunch of crazee ppl! Haha.. Rachel, Monica, Michelle, Angel, Kai Ling, Penelopee, Fiona, Naomi, Vanessa, Beverly, Miu Miu, Jamie, Kelly, Zen, Edison, Alex, Benny, Hansel & Mi!

Arghx.. They were teasing mi all e way! Asking who turns mi on more.. Guys or Gals.. Asking anyone i lyk now.. Arghx.. Soooo shy! Worst is i don want to be Edison & Alex's son! Don wan hor! Grrr.. Stoopid Edison! We were making soo much noise on e MRT.. By juz toking & laffing.. I asked more dum dum Qns again.. Im soo low-B!

Went to Heeren Marche! So long nvr ate thr! Best is i paid myself! Zen started a topic on mi.. Grr.. Saying tt i have become soo dependent on others, needing lotsa attention lyk bonsai plant..

Is it really true? But thy stil prefer mi this way.. Haha.. So nice & easy going but gotten dumber.. Not lyk last time.. So domineering, sarcastic, SMART & spoilt! Hmmm.. Im stil a spoilt brat though! Muahahaha.. Somehow my intelligence have a downgrade..

We walked around town be4 heading to Indochine. Wanted to watch a show, but.. Lotsa ppl got early classes the nxt day.. I ordered a Blue Moon Martini! Muahahaa.. We played soo mani mani dumb dumb games! Haha.. & Alex lost in 007, den had to drink sweetener + spit + pepper + salt + mucus + vodka lime + lemon juice + Tequilla + Blue Lagoon + tissue paper + cigarette ash + h20 to make it a BIG cup= TOXIC

But Edison ge is sooo sweet! Drink up for Alex! Haha.. See i soo nice lo! I nvr add anything! Heeee.. I lost once too.. Had to french kiss Kai Ling for 5 mins though.. Sooo ma-lu can! Heng she's into gals & nt guys.. Saved!

Home now.. Very tired & stinky! Zen ge ge, Edison, Kelly & Beverly! You better quit smoking! Or i don wan go out with u all le! Made mi smell sooooo stinky on the train!

Junior. Pines. For. Tt. Someone.

Arghx.. I sent him an SMS.. Asking he doesn't lyk mi izzit? Or he's seeing someone else.. Arghx.. I feel sooo stoopid.. I was lookin at my cell display, "Sending Message".

I realized wad i juz did wen it displayed, "Message Sent". Arghx..

R you going to be "The One" to grab my hand & write my name in the sand?

Tuesday, September 21, 2004

Junior. Is. Stressed. Up.

I am soo tired.. Celebrated Mosquitoe's birthday today! Weeeee.. So happy occassion..

Arghx.. Junior is sooo low-b! I am sooo dumb! I asked ppl how do indian men with e big bun wrapped around their head wear helmets.. So dumb!

Went town after PROJECT MEETINGS.. I have 4 more projects to clear before deadlines! Stress! 2 more coursework i have to submit to Laselle. Weee.. More stress!

Ms Jennifer Ho keeps telling mi to dress up wen i go out! She keeps saying i don have the designer look with my plain tees, jeans & sneakers.. Keeps on teasing mi with e othr gals! Grrr... Im sooo shy lor!

Went town for a check up.. Dr Tan said i lost weight! I am 47.4kg now.. Oh no.. I am seriously getting lighter! He says i have high metabolism rate & nt eating right.. Asked mi to eat more protein-enriched food.. Other than tt im perfectly healthy? Edison tt idiot told Dr Tan i dont finish eating my meals! I do ok! Den kana nagged by Dr Tan.. Bleahx

I gt my 3 months HIV test back! Negative! Yay! I was sooo scared i would contract something.. Heee

Edison brought along his stead Alex & another fwen Oliver.. His stead is sooooooooo good-looking! I melted when Alex spoke to mi in french.. I got this french craze now.. Sooooooo sexy.. Major turn on! Wahahaha..

I seriously felt like a big bright lightbulb! Thy held hands everywhr.. Grrr.. Oliver was ok.. Tried talking to mi.. But im lyk dis-interested.. Juz replied him "orhx" "heee" "anything".. Sooooo att'd of mi..

Had our dinner at e Somerset Coffee Club Express.. Shit u Edison! Don pair mi up with other guys anymore! My heart is... muAhahahaa.. YA..

Monday, September 20, 2004

Junior. &. Happy/Sad. Confrontations.

HAPPY---->

I went to sch with a false front today.. I was soo upset inside.. Soo troubled.. Reali reali upset.. But lotsa happy & weird tings happened in school today.. Anyway tml is Yu Wen's 19th Birthday.. Gonna celebrate! Crapped alot with my new classmates.. Haha.. & im not rich! Y do ppl keep tinkin im rich! I live in a 3 room flat! Does tt sound rich to u ppl? But my family have our own aparment in Melb, Australia.. muAhahaa..

& Mermaid is in NYP! He freaking took dunno how many of my pix for his project.. Worst is ask mi to stick my tongue out & gib him tt "flirtish" look.. I hate him! I hate takin photos & i serioulsy tink my biz-law lecturer is sick.. She made mi hate lanyards! Arghx! I gt 2 new phobias!

I got interviewed by TCS juz now.. Not gonna tell u ppl wad is it abt.. Lips sealed! muAhaha.. & i found $50 @ Somerset MRT!

SAD---->

I tink i hide my emotions well.. No one in sch seen mi cry b4? Shld be bah! So ugly lo.. Arghx.. I hate my life.. Its really really complicated.. Im nt a normal 18 yr old kid.. I have done soo much.. Experienced soo much.. Juz tt i don wan ppl to find out e dark side of mi.. Thr's soo many tings i wanna tell someone in sch.. & tt someone is soo impnt to mi.. I cant bear to hurt ____

Went Heeren today to meet Gary & return e stuff he bought for mi.. Lyk e shirt.. Hugo perfume.. The chain he gave mi.. The Samsung E-600C phone he got mi to contact mi.. Arghx.. He was there wen i reached Heeren, Spinelli.. He waved to mi & held my hand.. But i pulled it away.. & i saw e hurt in his eyes.. I was feeling soo terrible.. He asked how am i doin in school.. Anything new.. Who im with now.. & all e while he called mi "Jun-dear" or "Jun-jun"..

Den Gary asked mi can we start over again.. I expected this question sooner or later.. NO!! I guess everyone muz be thinking i am e one tt broke off with him.. I AM SOO NOT! He was seeing some other guy called Kelvin! How do u expect mi to accept tt? Worst is thy had sex! If Gary cant be truthful & faithful.. He doesnt deserve ME.. Why come back to mi wen tt Kelvin dumped him?

I cried wen i said no.. Its nt tt i cant bear to end the r/s but its soo hard for mi.. I treasure every r/s i had.. I want my ex to stil remain fwens with mi.. I don wan them to drift away from mi once we/re ovr.. But anything more than fwens after tt is a big no no..

& to tt FUCKING CHEE BYE OUT THR! Im not with someone for money! Oh plz.. I don have the looks to "mesmerize" them! & why would i wanna do tt?

So long as the person does not expect mi to pay for every single movie we go too.. Every meal we eat.. Pay for all expenses.. This kind of ppl are CHEAPSKATES! I cant care less for rich ppl! So long as the person is true to mi im happy! & most importantly i muz luv the person as much as he/she luvs mi.. I learnt my lesson e hard way.. Its soo hard for mi to force myself to luv someone..

I dunno.. But at least im no longer burdend.. I can finally breathe easier.. I dumped 5 bucks on the table to pay him for the fruit punch i had.. & i hitched a cab home.. I was lyk crying & soooo ugly can........ Cant imagine myself sitting MRT & crying.. Haha.. Im really really much better now..

REALLY! I AM SOO MUCH BETTER OFF!

Junior. Xxx.

gonna m8 tis short.. kinda late to go out..

1. meetin gary l8r to clear EVERYTHING up. feelin soo nervous nw..
2. threw away a whole box of luv letters.. weee..
3. watchin vcds with rach monica n etc l8r! my parents nt home today!
4. feelin very jealous aft i fnd out sumthin..
5. i am nt goin New York City to further my fashion studies. & seriously.. I HATE ART

Lastly.. I luv Mr Tay! update all e details l8r! wen i get back of cuz..

Junior. Is. Jealous.

I am feeling sooo sour nw.. Extremely.. Dunno wad to say.. You are e one.. But.. Haix.. So many questions to ask u.. So many things i dunno abt u.. So many things i wanna learn from u.. So many things i havent experience with u.. So many of sooo many..

I dunno.. Talkin to Kor on e phone.. Ppl stop complaining my blog is gettin messier n messier to read! Its juz tt.. Arghx.. I dunno..

Sunday, September 19, 2004

Junior. No. Comments.

I hate Mcdonald @ PS. Refer to Zach's blog.. Lazy to comment.. Very tired day! I found out whr is YMCA le! mUAhaha!

& im really really very low-b.. Arghx.. Meaning stoopid & etc..

Accompanied dear home.. Dunno wad to say actually.. Cuz 1st time i meet him den.. I dunno! Weeee.. Juz tt im happy. Tt's all! & he's heavier den mi.. Oh god.. I need to get heavier..

*Mr Tay! Plz don get suspicious of mi.. I am really really a gd boi.. I nvr mess arnd aftr knowing u.. I haven had xxx for lyk 2 wks? Arghx.. I nvr go meet othr ppl oso.. So don oways worry bout mi k? & i don wanna go too..

Tml still got sooo many things to do.. Sooo tired.. Arghx.. My mind is very blank now.. Dunno wad to blog for today.. Weeee..

Saturday, September 18, 2004

Junior. Awakes.

Had a dissapointing day.. Cuz nv meet my dear.. Tml also cannot see him.. & e many days after.. Im feeling soo empty inside.. Dunno y oso.. I dunno.. Im nt confused.. Im juz luv-sick? Even i myself dunno.. Whu can cure mi?

His workin tml.. Thght he can make it to my house.. Fine.. Working is gd! So he can look aft'd mi! I need lotsa lookin aft! muAhahaha.. But i don wanna be dependant on him! Im nt a leech! Weeee.. I wanna look aft'd him too! Feeling damn down now.. Dunno wad to say to him too.. Arghx.. Y am i feeling sooo horrid nw..

Thght we cld have our dinner.. catch a show.. & i send him home.. So wanna meet tt dum dum for da 1st tym.. Wanting him to hold & hug mi.. Sobx.. Instead i end up callin Rach go Bishan J8 with mi to eat.. Worst is i see ppl i don lyk thr.. Sowi Rach for e misunderstanding wor.. Thnks for treatng mi e choc cake wor..

Heee.. I'll listen to u & start saving ching ching in my bank.. Arghx.. I wanna be financially independant! Don wan u all keep treating mi stuff! Grrrr.. & i saved $30 today! Yay! Weee..

In pain everywhr oso.. Kinda sunburnt from playing tennis wit William ge this morn.. But it doesnt matter.. Cuz somewhr deep dwn hurts more.. Arghx.. Today's entree is ermm very very messy.. Arghx.. Im juz typing wad goes thru my brain nw..

Time for mi to wake up le.. Start revising le.. Zen ge ge said something tt triggered mi.. Mayb it'll kill all e lazy cells in mi.. "Junior di ure smart, u tink fast, but ure juz plain lazy. You have to change tt att'd!"

Each word cut deep into mi.. Mayb i shld start on revision.. Muz start doing my tutorials.. Haix..

Junior. Is. Dissapointed!

Dissapointed!!! HMPF!!!

Ask Mr Tay why!!! HMPF.......

Friday, September 17, 2004

Junior. &. His. Language.

Dam fed up nw wor!! Grrr.. Its lyk sooo many ppl copying my language!! Grrr.. More of slang though!! Wadever!! I hate copycats!! HmpF!! Went out with Edison & his fwens.. Thy were nice ppl.. Til thy decided to start toking lyk mi.. Tt's wen da fun died out..

Sowi i lost my temper & broke ur iPod Edison ge! But.. YA.. I AM PISSED. I hate posers! HmPF! & i don't mean to say this.. But i don't see y u shld foot the bill today at K-Box. Its lyk thy're out to cheat ur ching ching! Grrr..

Those arseholes copying my:

HmpF!
Bleahx
Orhx
boOyaH!
Bootylicious Sexilicious
hUh
Peace Out
Ching-Ching
Lalala
oOooohh weeeeE~
grrr

Ought to be shot dead. HmPF!!

Thursday, September 16, 2004

Junior. & Jasen's Luv. Song.

"Endless Summer"

We laughed, we cried
And all the while we felt so alive
It was you and me
You grabbed my hand and made me see
What it could feel like
And what it might be like
You wrote my name in the sand
In this endless summer
We will be together
And i dont want this feeling to ever end
Looking back in november
Feel the sun and remember
That when our time has finally come to pass
Somethings last
Somethings always last
Save goodbye
Keep it frozen in december
I need the high
To get me through the ever after
Cause now that it feels like
Its far from what it was like
When you wrote our names in the sand
In this endless summer
We will be together
And i dont want this feeling to ever end
Looking back in november
Feel the sun and remember
That when our time has finally come to pass
Somethings last
Somethings always last
It's not what it feels like
Its far from what it was like
When i wrote our name in the sand
In this endless summer
We will be together
And i dont want this feeling to ever end
Looking back in november
Feel the sun and remember
That when our time has finally come to pass
Somethings last
Somethings always last
Somethings last
Somethings always last
We laughed, we cried
And all the while we felt so alive
It was you and me

Junior. Is. Horny.

I AM JUZ SOOO HORNY TODAY... YST TOO... HORNY AS IN HORNY!! Weeeeee.....

Junior. Looks. Panda-ish.

OH MY GOD.. My complexion is getting worse.. Its bad b4.. Now its worse.. Arghx.. Serve mi right for nt lookin aft it.. But can this torment stop!?

I look lyk China's national treasure nw.. Oh no.. Help mi! More spots are popping out too.. Arghx..

Soooooo tired today! I did housework with Rach & Monica.. Soooo much to do! They practically threw away sooo many things from my room.. i don't even know are they needed notes or wad! Grr...

Worst is thy throw away my Ikea snake!!!!!!!!! ANGRY!!!!!! I luv tt snake!!!!!!!!!!! Arghx.. My entree getting messier these days.. Sowi to my readers wor.. Getting very stressed up everyday.. So muz rant abit..

School exam revisions are killing mi.. My 15 page fashion statement submission have not been completed.. I keep procrastinating on certain "duties".. I sleep later everyday! Oh no.. I used to sleep at least 12 hrs a day during secondary sch days.. But now im happy if i can have at least 6 hrs of rest.. Arghx..

Thanks Vincent for solving my computer probs & my panic attks!!

Oh ya.. i told Roslind & e CJC gals im Bi.. Weeeeeeeee.. Thy took it pretty well? muAhahaha..

Wednesday, September 15, 2004

Junior. &. Happiness?

Today was ok.. Kinda have this nasty feeling tt im gonna fail my Statistics! Arghx.. This is all attributed to my last minute.. & i do mean last minute of 1 hr revision.. Bleahx.

Called dear to whine.. For lyk 2 mins? Dunno y.. But thr's totally nothin for us to tok abt on e phone.. All of sudden im appreciative of MSN..

Thnks Michelle for accompanying mi today wor! *winkz*

Felix called to meet mi up @ Bugis.. Weeeeeee.. Won lyk 18 credits today all by myself ho! No one to help mi! muAhahaha.. Thanks Felix for buying mi dinner @ tt Japanese restaurant! Thnks for paying 3/4 of my x70 battery ching ching! Best fwens 4ever!

Dear today gt shortlisted for School Belle & Beauty.. His meet-up would be on Friday! Hope he gets selected! Then i can see him on TV! But he very very bo-simx! I drew a pix of him.. He say look lyk an Elf.. I drew again.. Den he say looks lyk a dead living! Grrrrr.. *bitex*

Calling 62353535 now.. Hawaiian pizza! Bleahx!

Junior. Panics.

SOooooooo many things to do but yet done! Arghx!!!

1. ICCM Proj (Compilation)
2. Marketinh Mngt Proj (Qn 3-6)
3. Biz Law Proj (Haven strtd!)
4. Stats Test (Haven strtd!)
5. Cleaning my room
6. Buying x70 battery
7. Many more r/s to clear up to.. Thank god my hp is down!
8. Sleep earlier! My face is rotting..
9. W8boarding this Thurs/Fri.. Im gonna be lyk an Ah Neh soon..
10.Collect $$$ from tt fucker tt owes mi!
11.Pay back Peng & Siong $$$
12.Reject New York City trip. I cant bear to leave SG.. *puke*
13.Beg Kor for loan
14.Get anthr tution student
15.REVISION!! Didn't know left 2 weeks!! ARGHX..
16.Set aside $$$ every month for Miami trip
17.Kp in contact with old, new fwens.. I tink im neglecting ppl..
18.Go china black! Or else Rouge! I need my shots!
19.Grow my hair longer.
20.Have a steady R/s with Jasen dear! *Ultimate objective B4 i go str8*

See!! Alot of things to be done rite? Haix.. Stress.. Oh ya.. My flu gotten better.. Wasn't sniffing much yst.. CUZ MY NOSE IS FRIGGIN BLOCKED.

Someone who makes me cry doesn't deserve my luv. It's someone who's willing to cry with me. Tt's the person I luv. I luv you!

Junior. @. Cali.

Jasen dear drew for mi wad happened when i went Cali juz now... Hee... I got a horny horny dear... Soo... YA... Abit ermm NC-16 wor.. MuAhahaha

Tuesday, September 14, 2004

Junior. Is. Stressed.

Arghx.. My cell permenantly down le wor.. Stres..

Found out tt my FYE in two week's time! Muz start mugging already! Stress more.. Worst is Biz Finance! I skip skip skip til i know nuts wad is going on abt it.. Stress more..

Did MM proj.. Stress.. Didn't know tt surveys are sooo hard to do! Grr.. I officially hate surveys.. Yeo's packet drinks.. Arghx.. Stress..

Went to California Fitness with Edison. Some guy asked about my "tanned ass".. STRESS. & he..... Shall nt elaborate. Told dear abt it.. Pengs.. Oh no.. Today's blog is sooooo messy.. Stress

Anyway Happy Birthday to Yu Wen's Bf.. Stanley rite?

Thy V bo simx sia.. Take pix nvr look at cam.. Eyes sideway de.. Bleahx. Oh ya.. Miranda & Chewlian's Birthday on October 1st & 2nd.. Charles Kor's on e 10th.. Rachel's birthday on e 12th.. Stress..

Today is reali a stressful day.. Worst is tml gt Stats exam.. STRESS!! Simply a stressful day..

Monday, September 13, 2004

Junior. Knows!

Jasen dislikes:

Hot spicy food
Bitter Mocha/Coffee tatse
Avril Lavigne
Kenny Rogers
Childhood
Jasmine Tay? hee..

Likes:

Red polos..
Ducks
Flesh Imp
Nike sneakers
Marina Promenade?

Tt's all i noe nw.. Hee.. Gotta Zzz.. Or else kana scolding by dear le.. Zzz..

HURT...

Junior. Is. Sick.

Sobx.. Today is reali a bad day.. Was ok in e morning.. Now im sniffing away.. Used up 3 boxes of tissues.. *sniffs*

My x70's battery finally coughed its last.. Guess i'll be uncontactable for a few days? My god.. I really wish ppl would stop callin my house nw.. Im sick & tired of answering e house phone..

I have to climb dwn e ladder of my bed.. Crawl to e phone.. Pick it up.. Groan "hello?" So sick & tired.. Its as if i masturbated 1,000,000 times today.. Arghx.. Im bloggin CRAP..

Gary called mi today.. Its been e 2nd day since he gt back frm Tokyo, Japan.. He wanted to patch things up with mi.. Brandon called mi today oso.. After seeing my "arghx... sick again..." MSN nick.. Devon called.. Stephen called.. Thaddeus called mi oso..

BOTTOMLINE---> "Junior don ignore mi.. Can we start over?"

ARGHX................ Soooo confused.............. Not to mention SICK. I juz "kup" e phone & set it on silent. I feel sooo damn bad.. Im nt handsome or anything.. Im UGLY.. STOOPID.. CHILDISH.. DUM.. IDIOTIC.. KIDDISH.. UGLY.. Did i mention UGLY? Y muz thy keep forcing mi into a r/s... *asTishoo*

Worst is Jasen Tay tt heartless idiot nvr call mi or watsoevr! FED UP. *sneeeZes* Dunno is he really serious about mi.. :(

K.. Time for medicine! Laters! Hope i get well soon.. & i mean SOON. Oh ya.. I hope my hair grows faster too.. *sniFfs*

Junior's. Leo. With. Jasen's. Aries.

Aries touches that part of your solar horoscope related to long journeys, philosophy, publishing, and communications. The signs are well aspected; together, Aries and Leo represent originality, independence, and a new approach.

This Mars of Aries, with your sun, spells action, you could burn up with activity, the key is to outline the sense of direction, to know where you are going. Obviously, Aries spurs you to greater efforts, and is instrumental in gaining recognition for your efforts; there is also physical attraction here. But there could he a tendency to go too fast. In so doing, there could be mishaps.

You can, with Aries, articulate constructive ideas. Aries gains recognition and publicity for you, Aries flatters you and when anyone does this, you are won over.

Aries is favorable, but tires you. You have to keep on your toes. You want to impress Aries. You may overextend yourself. There is only so much you can do. And, with Aries, you want to do it all.

With Aries, you would be wise to order a new supply of vitamins! The Mars of Aries and your Sun could catch fire, burn energy - and the need is for replacement, for reserve strength. Unless you understand this, there could be too much of a good thing.

Aries is especially helpful at aiding you to get ideas off the ground. You gain by strengthening your personal philosophy. Your association with Aries also aids publishing enterprises. Your views gain a wider audience.

A good relationship, Leo if you take time out to catch your breath!

Sunday, September 12, 2004

Junior. Is. Tired.

Dunno y oso.. These past few days i get tired very easily. Lyk under some fatigue spell.. Arghx.. Pain everywhr oso.. Went jogging, washed my dad's car, cleaned my room, ironed all my clothes, clearing r/s issues with ppl, tennis, wakeboarding, swimming etc.

No wonder im soo tired.. Sleeping more & more.. Taking more naps den usual.. I didnt go out on Saturday & Sunday to party! & i stil don get fat! I nd to get fat! Im too skinny!

Rejected Thaddeus & a few othrs.. Too tired to go out.. Most impnt is i wan to be commited wor! muAhahaha.. Jasen finally called mi "baby" othr den e usual "di".. Grrr.. e nxt time he call mi "di" muz fine him 1 bitex.

Tt's all for today.. Gonna take a nap den watch my Ch8 sword show.. Talk to dear b4 slping early! No school tml! Weeee.. Gonna go wakeboarding! Hmmm.. Mayb skipping it.. Im gettin too BLACK instead of tanned. I feel lyk e "mud" class. Ewwwwwwww..

Saturday, September 11, 2004

Junior. Solved. 1. Problem.

Went to Heeren Shops to mt Felix to clear things up.. Gt my Dad to drive mi thr.. Weee.. Sat At Spinelli & had a gd talk.. Ya.. Abt who i lyk now.. & tt i shldn't avoid him..

I feel soo bad.. I hurt him time & time again.. Arghx.. But his oways thr for mi.. Actually wanted to go Hagen Daaz eat ice-cream! But cloz le.. Bleahx..

Heeee.. So tired.. I miss Jasen!

Junior. Luv. Jasen!

See title? Ya.. Im in luv with Jasen Tay! Heee.. muAhaha.. Had a fun day @ home! Ordered pizza & stuff.. Played abit of Mah-jong.. Won $30+ cuz gt Jasen dr gibin mi luck.. Heee..

Decided nt to go out to town.. Forgt i look alien in my new freaky freaky hairstyle.. Arghx..

Played Monopoly aft Mah-jong! Arghx! I hate tt game! My dog keep stepping into Rachel's Tanglin Hotels, den Monica's Cityhall station.. & Tt stoopid stoopid Battery Road of Fiona! Arghx! Keep bullying mi de!

Force my dog stay in jail! Grrr.. Den name it dog pound cuz onli my dog kp goin in! HmpF! Taking a nap now.. Zzzzz.. *droolz*

I Luv Jasen Tay only! Sooo ppl don ask mi out tt often le.. boO-yAh-cHa-chA!

Junior. Is. Crying.

Crying in my room. Soo many things running thru my head.. Its soo hard to be mi.

Junior. Is. Confused. Again.

Arghx.. I am feeling very down now.. Recieved sms from ____. Izzit a hint to reconcile & get back together? Or am i thinking too much? I clean forgotten abt ____ le. I dont wanna hurt ____ again. Its oso very hurting for mi too.. Very very very very hurting.. I don wanna be hurt again..

"K" told mi his sick with headache.. MuAcks.. Muz take care worx! Kinda sad oso.. Cuz nvr bother to reply my sms EVERYTIME! Nvr call mi lyk promised too! HmpF! Sms mi oso ermm nt about "mi" stuff.. Is "K" serious..? Or..? Arghx.. But "K" is sooo hardworking & caring.. "K" is lyk a catalyst for mi to work hard & to luv him too..

I am feeling sooo confused.. I need an answer from ppl i lyk.. Nt ppl tt lyk mi.. I wanna woo.. Nt be woo'd.. But i need to be looked after in a R/s.. I can't look aft my dears well.. But will try my best.. Feeling soo moody.. Soo lost..

I juz need someone tt would hold mi wen we go out, be there for mi wen i'm in all my different moods.. & i promise i won't flirt arnd.. Nt anymore..

Gonna go for a midnight jog.. Laters!

Friday, September 10, 2004

Junior. Is. Jealous.

Arghx.. Can't get off wad's written on ___ blog's.. Wad's e sign u wan.. Gib mi at least a hint? I feel soo jealous now.. Though u say u put mi 1st priority but.. I wan u & it hurts soo bad to see i have a rival..

Now i noe hw my exs feels.. So hurting & so full of jealousy.. When u noe ur luv'd one is out with othr ppl.. Arghx.. Is tis retribution? Sobx..

Izzit becuz i can't stay committed in a r/s tt's y u don't wanna accept mi yet? If u accept mi i will stop going out with othr ppl & stop flirting arnd.. I'll be thr for u.. Lyk ure thr for mi..

Everytime i wanna whine & made u say "Okay~"
Everytime i feel moody & made u worried
Everytime i get silly & made u laff
Everytime every moment i tink of U

Gonna go Edison's house.. Honey is gonna gib birth to puppies! Weeee.. Wanna go see & take pix! muAhaha..

Junior. &. Honey.

Honey in e shed with her 7 pups.. So cute.. She gave birth at 3:18pm. Recorded by Dr. Junior. Heee.

So cute lor!! All of them suckling! Heee.. Den soo small.. Eyes ma-chiam cnt open..

Honey cleaning up her pups.. Luving mama dog..

Tt's the pup i lyk e most! Honey licking the backside.. Dunno y..

The 7 puppies alone. Edison wiping Honey clean from all e mess.

Actually gt 8 puppies.. But one born out dead de.. Sobx.. Den bury in Edison's back yard..

Junior. & Bad. Hair. Day.

My hair suxs. It sux'd before.. Now it juz sux'd even more. Arghx.. My hair is fucking short in e fringe.. Worst is i measured it.. 1 inch only.. ARGHX.

The back stil keeping my tail, but much longer nw.. Sobx sobx.. Shldn't try new & funny stuff.. Worst is on e phone "dear" scold mi.. Cuz i Zzzz wen Kitty cutting my hair.. MuAhaha.. Tt's y cut til lyk tt.. Bleahx.

Heee.. Told "dear" to go slp or i bitex.. Budden found out i gt luv rival wor.. Sadded. But will oways luv "dear" no matter what.. Even if we nvr go into a r/s..

Tired.. Wan dwink my milk & Zzzzz le.. Weeee.. I luv "dear"!

Thursday, September 09, 2004

Junior. &. Vera

Haha.. Vera's pix. Took it at some cafe behind Somerset using her digi-cam.. Forgot to bring mine today! Arghx.. I'm gettin more & more senile.. Watched "The Terminal" together today too.. Quite funni! Heee.. Thnks for e treat Vera! Muahaha..

Went to Boss's cafe to use e com! Arghx.. Had to submit Marketing E-learning.. Thnks Chew lian, Roslind, Miranda & Zul for e help! My god.. I dunno wad to do without u gals!! Hee. Boss also treated mi to his new menu.. Roasted Chix With Mexican Sauce.. Ok la.. Ewww........................... Hee.

Went to Heeren to shop about, Vera got this shirt.. "Bill Gates!" Hee.. Muz ask her send mi e pix we took sticking our face to HMV.. MuAhaha..

Junior & Ashlee Simpson Sings:

"Better Off"

The sky is falling
And it's early in the morning
But it's ok somehow
I spilt my coffee, it went
All over your clothes
I gotta wear mine now

And im always, always,always late
And my hair's a mess,
Even when it's straight

But so what,
I'm better off everyday
When i'm standing in the pouring rain, I dont mind
I think of you and everythings alright
I used to think i had it good
But now i know that i misunderstood
With you I'd say, i'm better off in every way

My friends keep callin'
They say, they say im stallin'
And they wanna meet you now
I tell them hell no, i say
We're tryin' to lay low
Don't wanna lose what i've found

Things are finally, finally lookin' up
Oh my feet are on the ground
Even though im stuck

But so what,
I'm better off everyday
When i'm standing in the pouring rain, I dont mind
I think of you and everythings alright
I used to think i had it good
But now i know that i misunderstood
With you I'd say, i'm better off in every way

Things are finally, finally lookin' up
Oh my feet are on the ground
Even though im stuck
Even though im stuck

But so what,
I'm better off everyday
When i'm standing in the pouring rain, I dont mind
I think of you and everythings alright
I used to think i had it good
But now i know that i misunderstood
With you I'd say, i'm better off in every way

Yeah, yeah

Better off in every way
I'm better off in every way
I'm better off today

The sky is falling
And it's early in the morning
But it's ok

Junior. &. R21.

Mei's secretive dumpling has a pinkish glow tt permeates through its hand-made dough wrapping. So funny! Hee.. But you have to pay a price to eat it.

Forgot, yesterday is e 1st time i went into a cinema to watch a R21 show.. Heee.. Watched it at Prince 1 cinema.. Duh rite? Tt's y can go in la! Bugis cinemas are gettin crappy.. So exciting! The cinema sooo empty one! But the show ar.. Quite boring.. Cuz the show's ending is to teach u something abt life..

Its some sort related to e movie "Three" from last yr.. Got three stories in one movie. Heng is tt Mark treat mi.. At least he nv ask mi pay.. Or else.. I will.. *beep*beep* (censored) Hee..

Wednesday, September 08, 2004

Junior. &. Shit. Datex.

Today is a very BUSY DAY. Went for softball practice in e morn, aftr tt headed to Raffles Laselle & had an interview. Still tinkin thru abt my New York trip.. Rushed home to change..

I need a haircut. My hair's gettin messier & messier i found out.. Arghx.. Talked to "K" before i went for my class.. Kinda boring during stats.. Had back my results & i did nt bad. Hehe.. Went to disturb Ms Tan & got her angwi.. Sowi Ms Tan Li Ru!

Laff'd with Zul & her fwens to Orchard, but i headed down Bugis to meet Mark. Shitty date. He asked mi out.. Brought mi to a KOPITIAM AT SHAW TOWER.. Aft i gave a dirrty face tt im uneasy den he suggest we have a change of place.. & guess wad? Anthr KOPITIAM & he bought mi a $1.10 coke & his grumbling already.. Eeeeeewwww.. I mean 1st date at least can we go some nicer place with air-con?

So nt seeing him anymore.. Yucks! Went to Bugis to play arcade! 18 wins! Nt bad! Gt a fwen to help mi.. Heee.. Athena, Whip & Leona! Forgot ask for his no. again.. Muz really thnk him!

Went to Rouge to meet Thaddeus. Izzit spelt this way? Oopss.. Had a good time.. Thnks for my dwinks! I luvvvvvvv my Sex On The Beach & AK47.. On e way back met a old fwen Angela.

Home now.. Forgot to set "Away" on MSN again. SHIT. So many ppl lyk msn'd mi.. Arghx.. Had such a hard time replying. Worst is my com hang'd juz now! Grrr! Da xin xin Chew Lian i wanna BITE u le! Tell u will hang, u don believe mi!

Tml gonna go town. Meeting Vera for br8fast & mayb a movie? I dunno.. Heee.. Tml den update.. Sooo tired now.. I miss "K__"

Junior. Is. Single!

I am single once more! Weeee.. Wanna stay this way for some time.. Arghx.. Better don let Steve ge ge find out.. Or my Kors.. Sure scold mi de..

Wad Steve ge ge scolded mi e othr time i br8 up with _____---> "Got chio Gf, wanna be single for wad? Really stoopid kid!!"

I'm feeling kinda relieved now? Hazel will be back tml. Anyway e Paris heart pendant arrived this morning.. Heee.. 1st time i signed off a package wor! Muahaha..

Gonna give it to her as someting to remember mi by.. Gtg! Softball practice!

Junior. Cried.

Went out to have supper with Edison & Fiona.. Arghx.. I cried again.. Recieved a call.. Made mi very confused & sad.. I am soo confused.. I know wad i want now.. But i am afraid.. So afraid.. To lose those i luv & those tt luv mi..

Would i lose tt someone if we develop our fwenship into a r/s? I don wanna lose_____. Tt someone has become an impnt part of my life.. I feel soo bad.. I thought tings thru. I don wanna waste anyone else's time.. Gonna make things clear by today hopefully..

Am i really tt attractive? I am ugly, stoopid, childish, dumb, idiotic etc.. Y do some ppl wanna fall for mi..? I juz made them wait for mi.. Am i leading them on..? Arghx.. I moved on aft my br8.. I know it takes time.. It hurts alot.. Its not easy.. But life has to go on..

Im gonna be commited soon.. To tt special special someone.. That is if tt someone accepts mi.. Or i'll be tired of r/s & stay single..

Tuesday, September 07, 2004

Junior. Is. Troubled.

Skipped school today.

-A list of stuff i must do-
1. Clear all school projects
2. Sleep earlier. By 1am now.
3. No more fast food. I swear by it.
4. Buy X70 battery
5. Hair cut

Met one of my ex Art t-cher frm CHS. She kinda asked mi out for dinner to catch up. Swapped no. with her too. I feel _____. Had breakfast with Kendrick & his fren tt stood mi up yesterday. Tt guy called Joshua, has a serious EGO issue. Kinda disgusted by him so told him let's nvr meet up anymore & i went off. Kendrick called, but i didnt ans. Sowi.

After tt went to Bugis to meet Edison for lunch. Had Swenson's.. Fish & Chips.. Edison knew i have lotsa stuff on my mind. I told him everything. All my troubles.. Den i cried on him. Sobx.

No mood to go anywhr. So don't ask mi out. At home now watching cartoons, jux woke up frm my nap.

Junior. Misses. Clubbing.

Edison asked mi go clubbing tis Saturday nite.. Hmmm thinking abt goin.. Sooo stressed up with my sickening life. I have to pretend to be happy & go school everyday. Alot ppl oso say thy can't tell whether im angry or sad. Cuz im oways so happy? Really? Arghx.

I miss my Tequila Sunrise.. Tequila Pop.. Vanilla Vodka.. Purple Rain.. Departure.. Round The World.. Graveyard.. Quick Fu#k.. Sour Pussy.. Blue Lagoon.. Blue Hawaii.. Long Island Iced Tea.. Whisky Coke.. Whisky Green Tea.. Nuclear Iced Tea.. Black & White Russian.. Apple Martini.. Blue Moon Martini..

& my Sex On The Beach.. Arghx..

Shadow- Junior & Ashlee Simpson

I was six years old
When my parents ran away
I was stuck inside a broken life
I couldn't wish away
She was beautiful
She had everything and more
And my escape was hiding out and running for the door

Somebody listen please
It used to be so hard being me
Living in the shadow
Of someone else's dream
Trying to find a hand to hold but every touch felt cold to me
Living in a nightmare
A never-ending sleep
But now that I am wide awake
My chains are finally free
Don't feel sorry for me

All the days collided
One less perfect than the next
I was stuck inside someone else's life and always second best
Oh, I love you now 'cause now I realize
That it's safe outside to come alive in my identity

So if you're listening
There's so much more to me you haven't seen
Living in the shadow
Of someone else's dream
Trying to find a hand to hold but every touch felt cold to me
Living in a nightmare
A never-ending sleep
But now that I am wide awake
Then I can finally see
Don't feel sorry-

Mother, sister, father, sister, mother
Everything's cool now
Mother, sister, father, sister, mother
Everything's cool now
Oh, my life is good
I've got more than anyone should
Oh, my life is good
And the past is in the past

I was living in the shadow
Of someone else's dream
Trying to find a hand to hold but every touch felt cold to me
I'm living in a new day
I'm living it for me
And now that I am wide awake
Then I can finally be
Don't feel sorry for me
Don't feel sorry, don't feel sorry for me

Living in, living in, living in the shadow
Living in, living in, living in a new day

*My shit mood now. I feel as though im living in my Kor's shadow. So true abt this song. Arghx. I hate my life.. SO complicated, so confusing, so full of shit. Time to wake up. Took e 1st step out! 1st day of studying today!

Its really hard to be ME.

Monday, September 06, 2004

Junior. Kana. Aeroplane.

Woke up arnd 9am+ today.. So tired. Went for e super boring Biz Law lesson. Kept on yawning & yawning..

Gary dr & Hazel hunni called mi. Weee. So happy.. But sad too.. Thy get to enjoy while im lyk a prisoner in the freaking NYP..

Went to meet Mrs Weers aft tt for a small talk. Arghx.. She wanted to call my parents.. Looks lyk i have to hang the phone.. Weee

Hurried to Heeren. Supposed to mt Kendrick's fren, but he freaking stood mi up. Kinda du lan. Cuz he asked mi out, den he put my aeroplane. FED UP. Kendrick ur fren is soo DEAD. Went to find Apple, she sms'd say she saw mi in town.

Had dinner with her. Chatted with her.. Felt tt i kinda neglected her.. Havent been calling her nor sms-in her.. Arghx. I really do treasure my frens.. But sometimes, i juz forget.. Ppl come into my life lyk shadows.. I cant keep everyone by my side.. I cant stop anyone from leaving mi..

I only can wish the best for them..

Junior. &. Online. Shopping.

Was surfing online wen i saw "Paris Hilton the career socialite cum entertainer has now added the title of jewellery designer to her glowing resume." Wahaha.. Took a look & had an immediate liking to this pendent tt is lyk a copy of Tiffany's Classic Elsa Peretti Heart Pendant which my hunni lyk'd alot alot alot. But its CHEAPER.

From Amazon.com --->
This sexy silver heart pendant has lovely curves accentuated by hot-pink Swarovski crystals that graduate in size. This fun and flirtatious pendant hangs from a pink satin cord that softly pierces the corner of the heart.

The glimmering Swarovski crystals are set securely in the sterling silver heart. The pendant is secured with a lobster-claw clasp. The heart measures 1-1/8 inches high and 1-3/16 inches wide. The satin cord is 16 inches long.

Each piece in the Paris Hilton Collection includes a special certificate of authenticity autographed by Paris.

Called Kor in Melb, Australia to help mi order it through Amazon.com. Weeee.. My card kinda gt confiscated cuz i overspent.. Arghx. Suxs. Thnks Kor! Kor set Priority International Courier $29.99 + the pendant $35.00 = $64.99. Hmm.. Guess muz multiply by 2 cuz its in US dollars? Gonna be sooo B.R.O.K.E..

No idea.. Kor helping mi pay 1st! Hope my hunni lyks it.. Hee. Her birthday coming soon too.. Lalala

Sunday, September 05, 2004

Junior. Found. His. Scrapbook.

Some of e pixs i drew wen i'm bored working last tym. Been some tym since i drew. Kinda took up part-time Fashion Studies now. Surprised? Guess alot of ppl didn't know my Art backgrnd except those from my Sec sch & cloz fwens bah? Weee..

Although Laselle sent mi e invite again.. I'm stil hesitating. I have to be attached to an overseas fashion company for 5 years. Nt sure about the details, but i'll be going with Min Min & Oliver.. Given this "g.o.l.d.e.n" opportunity, i should go all out for it rite? But, i have many many obligations which is restricting mi.. 1 thing for sure is my parents wouldnt be too happy to let mi go.

Reason? Im still a kid in my parent's eyes. While my Kor is all grown up & a 18 yr old MAN. Im stil a 8 yr old milk drinking kid.

*But.. I am very. very. very. very. very. and i repeat VERY surprised thy lyked my Spring -> Summer -> Fall -> Winter collections. Heee.. Will post e pixs if thy ever return mi my coursebook. Right now tinking of wad to eat.. Kinda hungry. Hee..

Junior. Is. Sick.

Sick. I cooked some Maggi Mee in the microwave. I guess my stomach didnt lyk the tatse. Felt lyk puking out the food but.. YUCKS. Don wan!

Wanted to go out meet Stephen. Worst is i called him ask him wanna go out, he said "cool" dne i say i'll call him later again. Arghx. Stephen im nt playing with u! I reali can't decide one... Hee.. You know oso la! muAcks! Thnks for caring too!

Miss my dear & hunni soo much. Feeling much better after the nap i took. So many sms to wish mi well.. Muahahaa.. Shld fall sick more often den! ~CHOI~ Need reply all of u all, den muz see doc. NOT CHEAP! Bleahx.

One of e sms is frm Jephthah, asking how im feeling.. Called him aft he kept replying my sms. Grr.. But he pissed mi off. Saying i lyk rich ppl only. I don't even know who i lyk now. How can he say i lyk rich ppl only, den say its a joke aft pissing mi off. I can take jokes, but the way he put it is soo sickening.

I dunno.. I'm soo confused. I found someone i really like. But.. We share a r/s which is very very complicated. Hmm... I threw some hints.. But.. Will [x] geddit?

Junior. & Overseas. Call.

Weee.. So happy now.. Talking to my Gary dr as i'm blogging this. Dam "xin fen" now.. Muahaha.. Gary dr finally landed safely at e airport.

Kinda felt bad though.. Cuz the initial conversation i sounded ermm fuck up'd? Hmm.. Haha.. Fuck up'd!

Junior: "Whu u?"
Dear: "Jun dear its mi la u idiot!"
Junior: "Arghx.. Dear u calling mi from Tokyo? V expensive!"
Dear: "Dumb boi.. its e caller paying.."
Junior: "Orhx"
Dear: "I missed you"
Junior: "Orhx"

Dunno y.. I juz went "Orhx" "Orhx" "Orhx".. I missed u dear alot.. Really.. But..

Junior. &. Stephen.

Met Stephen @ PS. Arghx.. Was late as usual.. Walked around PS.. Utt was at PS today.. MuAhaha.. Stephen bought a pair of 501 Levis' though. I'm kinda broke, so didn't buy anything.. Arghx. I hate being poor. Went to some coffee shop at Somerset and had our lunch.

Went to back to PS arcade to dance Para Para.. Hee.. Played KOF.. Kinda watsed $1. But beat by 6 though. Weee.. Saw Gillian but didn't say hi. Kana hit by her for nothing! Grr.. Sometimes is nt i "dao" den nvr say "hi".. But is i reali nvr notice ppl.. Hee. So sorry Stpehen! Made u walk arnd town aimlessly! Hee.

Wanted to find Maxel Kor, but lazy la! He don wan tell mi whr's he workin at.. So i gave up e idea..

Junior. Hates. Bowling.

Went to bowl later. Should have played billiard instead! Grr.. I sux totally at bowling! Arghx.. I practically long-kang all e way.. I look so stoopid bowling.. I have to use the light balls too.. 8kg? Forgot le la..

Stephen kept laffing at mi! Made mi soo pek-chek! Went home aft tt.. Thnks Stephen for the treat & the sooper dooper fun day!

Missing Gary dr.. and its [01 Day].. Arghx. Hazel hunni gonna be back in 5 days thought.. Weeee.

Saturday, September 04, 2004

Junior. &. Edison.

This is my idiot Edison Yeo. So stop asking me is he the other Edison Yeo in my frenster. Grrrx. I hate his Pink + Black stripes shirt. Cuz i bought it for him. MuAhaha.

Gary dear off with his mum to Tokyo, Japan. So gonna miss him sooo much.. My Hazel gal oso off on holiday. Arghx. Y both my Gf & Bf both overseas.. Sianz!

Anyway.. Abt to prepare & go out le.. Out with Stephen! Laters!

Friday, September 03, 2004

Junior. Fucking. Burst. x. Blood. Vessels.

Today is fucking shit. I am damn fucking shagged. Slept for an hr plus cuz Gary dr staying over my place.. Took e fucking bus 25 to Bedok to meet Marc. The fucking bus is sooo fucking packed with fucking ppl stepping on my Ripcurl bag. So fucking shit. Talked to Maxel Kor, cuz tt Marc arsewipe has nt been fucking returning my calls.. Fucker.

Reached fucking Kallang after i fucking oversat e fucking bus 25 all e way to fucking Kembangan.. Tt arsehole ask mi to meet him 7:00am.. I reached arnd 8:30am.. BUT tt fucking chee bye 10:30am ++ den got his fucking arse in a cab. OMG. No more IRC for mi. Jasen Tay should fucking know WHY. Fucking fucking fucking fucking fucking ----> Speechless.

Reached e fucking Broadrick Secondary School.. With lotsa ppl fucking staring at mi. Wad's e FUCK is wrong with them? Need gourging of thier fucking eyeballs? Nvr say ppl pierce a stud b4 huh? & worse is my hair is "quite" fucking black lor.

Marc asked mi to wear an fucking ugly cap. I decided to sit fucking bus 16 to town to get a cap instead. The fucking bus fucking turn left, right, loop, u-turn here, there, everywhere. Making mi soo fucking sick of sitting in tt fucking bus.

Oversat my fucking stop & had to fucking walk to Heeren to get a cap. Flash & Splash has fucking shitty no. of caps. So I bought a cap frm FleshImp & a Quiksilver trucker cap frm Quiksilver at Paragon.

Called e fucking Marc & asked him whr to sit fucking bus 16 back. He fucking cannot tell between fucking Centrepoint & fucking Orchard Emerald. Since its OE, went up e arcade & made a few ah bengs du-lan with my pink team. Pink Athena, pink Mai, Pink Yuri.

Air-slam, Air slam, teleport slam, teleport slam. Made them du-lan til thy fucking kicked chair. But thy didn't dare to fucking do anything. I know e In-Charge thr quite well? Muahaha. Not bad, 34 fucking wins today.

Sat tt fucking shit bus 16 back to fucking Kallang. Same fucking procedure. Fucking shit. Slept on e bus cuz im soo fucking shagged! Reached back e fucking Broadrick school.. & some fucking chee bye HOD lan-jiao fucking stare at mi. Fuck. Went to ORC room to put on my fucking cap & change my stud to a fucking retainer.

Den e fucking Marc say he'll give mi today's pay, cuz e HOD didn't fucking lyk my hair & asked mi to fucking LEAVE.

CONTINUED

Called Gary dr to come pick mi up. Supposed to meet him at Kallang train station but i overslept & sat til Lavender.. Called dr.. Arghx.. Got scolded by him.. Hee.. Met Edison e idiot whu's thr to do his dumb passport.. Whoa.. Rich sia.. He's on holiday mode too.. Haix.. My holidays SUXS.

Dear came & picked me + Edison (lighbulb) up.. Headed to PS to have lunch. I luv dear. Oways make mi happy. Kept tickling mi & stuff.. Haha. Ate 2 Baked Seafood Pasta. Can tell hw du-lan i am not? Dear excused himself say got stomachache. So mi & Edison went to e arcade. Raced Edison on Initial D. Arghx. Lost to him. TMD.

Dear came back with the Baby G i wanted.. Arghx. But i refunded it. I don't want him to spend ching ching juz to make mi happy. Its not wad i waant in a R/s. Yeh.. I don't regret returning it.. But a wee bit remorseful.. Cuz a fwen's fwen is workin thr.. Kinda got her into trouble bah? Soo sowi.. Better buy her dinner or sumthing.. Bleahx.

Sent Edison home.. Now at Gary dr's house helping him to pack his bag. Lent him my Ripcurl bag. Sooo gonna miss him.. Light's Out! Going to have.... muAhaha.

Junior. &. Devon.

This is Devon e guy i was talking about b4.. Arghx.. But his a really really nice person.. Weee.. Gave mi mentos! Hee..

But im ATTACHED.. Hmmm Should be DOUBLE ATTACHED! I got my Gary dear & Hazel Hunni! I feel soo "xin fu"!

Junior. Not. Enuf. Zzzz.

Zzzz... Didnt get much slp yesterday nite! Soo god damn slpy nw.. Practically lying on Gary's shoulder nw.. Zzzz..

Packed my bag, going to head for my camp arnd Kallang.. I feel soo way lethargic nw.. Especially aft hearing depressing news..

I caused an AJ couple to break up. Arghx.. Felt damn bad.. Josh is my cloz fwen, Aaron is his stead.. Aaron is those kind of flirts.. Yeh.. Den Aaron broke up with my fwen to go aftr mi thinking i was stil "single".. Arghx.. But i rejected him. Do i look single? Oh no..

How can someone treat a R/s so lightly? Bleahx. Now tt jerk Aaron has nothing.. We both feels tt he's such a loser arse-hole.. But i felt damn bad. Cuz i broke them up.. Arghx.. Sobx.. I wonder would Josh be stil as cloz to mi as before?

Aiyo.. I better jio Josh out for dinner.. Arghx.. I feel damn BAD! & Josh keeps saying his fine.. Josh is single now.. Any takers? MuAhaha..

Juz found out tt my classmate Nicole Low is in e compeitition too.. So go vote for her too!
http://ch8.mediacorptv.com/belle-beau/female.php?uid=1075

Leaving home heading to Eunos now.. Gonna miss Gary, Hazel, Kors, Jies & fwens sooo much!

Heee.. At least i have freedom from u all for 3 whole days! Weee..

Junior. & Gary. Surprise!

Weee.. Was tokin to Gary(2) wen someone knock'd on my window.. Hee.. Den see my dear standing outside in his boxers.. So coincidence yeh?

Opened e door for dear.. Going to slp now.. Shhh..

Thursday, September 02, 2004

Junior. &. Alex.

Wahaha.. Alex is e best! He got mi my Quiksilver boardshorts! I luv him! As a fren la.. Heee.. I luv Gary only..

Alex tt dum dum idiot's fren drew this for him and he dumped it together with my shorts.. Grrr.. Spent the morning with Gary at Spinelli, talking abt ppl.. Juz doin wad couples do? Heee..

Went to watch Anaconda aft tt.. So scary! Saw many of my fwens.. Lyk Kendrick, Benny & etc.. All in town sia.. Den all come try pull my shorts dwn.. I hate them! Oways bully mi! Grr..

Junior. &. Queenie.

Aft the show i met up with Queenie! She's back to S'pore for a short holiday! Wah.. Miss her soo much! Gave mi a BIG hug & muAcks! Hee.. She gt mi TY beanie bear! But i left in Gary dr's car..

We went to Killieney Road to have our dinner. We ordered lotsa food! BbQ chix, my chix salad, butter prawns etc.. Sooo full.. Got dear to feed mi.. Den i bit his finger! MuAcks!

Talked to Queenie-jie abt my R/s with Gary.. Kinda stunned her. Haha. But she's cool abt it.. Cuz she's my jie wad! I wonder wad's so wrong abt being openly "Bi"? Gary oways lyk to hold my hand wen we're in town.. But y do some couples find it soo hard to do it? Arghx.. Queenie says im soo naive! Lyk 8yr old kid.. HmpF.. She said tt ppl will oways be J-U-D-G-E-M-E-N-T-A-L of othrs. Soo true.. muAcks! Queenie realli understands how i feel..

Gary dear gave Queenie a lift home back to her hotel & dropped mi off at Orchard while he went back home to Zzzz.. Kinda had "fun" e nite b4.. I fell off my bed.. Arghx.. Bruises everywhr.. PAIN.

Went to mt up my two "Bi" Kors & tt Garfield Jeph at Wheelock's BK. [Gary(2)---> (Anthr Gary)] & his fwen came l8r. Went to Cathay Cine & ate Long John's, went to Heeren to buy my shorts but Flash & Splash is closed.. Arghx. Said "Hi" to e Jap crazi gal frm NYP & headed to Orchard Emerald's arcade..

Muahaha! Bunch of losers thr today! Had 15 wins b4 i went to meet Miu Miu & her fwen Devon..

Didnt know Devon is interested in mi til Miu Miu told him i had a bf! Heee.. Oh wells.. He wanted to know mi btr bah? I dunno.. He asked for my cell no. though..

Met Madeline on e way & wished her Happy Belated Birthday! Alex passed mi my shorts & went home aft he sent mi back..

Had a long, luving day with my Gary dr , Kors, Jies, & fwens.. Gonna heading for my camp tml.. Yay!!

Junior. Luvs. Gary.

Gary's at my house.. With Edison tt idiot as a L-I-G-H-T-B-U-L-B. Looks lyk retribution for mi.. Arghx.. Heeee.. We're goin to have.. & .. & .. & .. & ..

I miss all my clubbing fwens.. Sowi i neglected u guys, but i reali wanna quit.. We can stil go out catch a movie, P-U-B-B-I-N-G or sumthing else wad.. So stop forcing mi..

MuAhaha.. Tml going with Gary my Bf to watch Anaconda! Saw in e advertisement showing e snake going "sssssssstt..." den "Chomp! Chomp!" Bite off e guy's head. Weeee! Goin to hug on to my dear! Period.

Wednesday, September 01, 2004

Junior. &. Bai-Tang.

Went to school today to do Biz Finanace prog again! Arghx.. Sianz.. Saw Zhong Xi, Bai-Tang! muAhaha.. Took his sickening head! Weee.. He is my best bestest tutor & project aid! Weee..

Junior. & Bun. Bun.

She is my saviour! Bun Bun (Mian Bao) oways help mi scan card. Oways bully mi oso. Keep on beating my head.. Keep saying i stoopid. She keep on beating mi no wonder i so dumb lor! muAhaha..

Haha.. Muz be nice to her.. Cuz later she spy on mi den go back tell my "wife" Joleen! Grrr.. Oways say i lazy don go lecture, don go tutorial.. Joleen den will come scold mi.. Arghx..

Junior. Zul. &. Roslind.

My project mates! Weee.. I luv them soo much.. Thnks sooo much for letting mi type the report & spare mi all the financial accounting! Weee.. Helped Melissa & Vigster with thier blogs.. Bleahx. Kinda left early today to meet Jephthah tt idiot pig!

Met Si-ting on e way. Crapped with her all e way to Somerset. Sent her to work too. Weee.. Best is she say got something wanna give mi. Ask mi tml go find her! muAhaha.. So suspense!

Junior. @. Sakae.

Went with Jephthah to Heeren. Headed to Flash & Splash & Citylink. Bio e stuff i wan again.. *HINTS*. Met Gary & his fren while Q-ing for seats.

*Note; Tt Gary i meet nt my Gary! muAhaha. Is my Maria's (Jeph's) Gary!

Some guy over-ate and vomitted everything out.. YUCKS.. Behind mi somemore.. Eeeewww.. Very disgusted! Didn't dare to walk on e floor.. Scared to dirrty e Havainnas slippers Charles Kor gt mi.. Heee.. Went home washed with lotsa Soap!

Junior. ATE. Lots.

Ate lots as usual? Weee.. Budden i only ate 14 plates of sushi.. 2 servings of watermelon.. 1 desert.. 1 bowl of wakame udon.. Tt's all.. Arghx.. Rachel see le sure kao-peh mi! MuAhaha.. "Junior! Y u eat sooo much still so skinny! I hate u!" Haix.. She oso copy my "I hate u" Bleahx.

Do i really eat alot? So not true.. Try chewing the food til "mian mian" den swallow, its easier for ur stomach to digest the food! Den u won't put on weight.. Dum Dum! Hmpf!

Junior. &. Arcade.

Sobx.. Today lost quite abit of credits on KOF.. BIG LOSS! Max wins is 6 today.. den wasted $2 today. Haix.. Saw lotsa ppl today.. But pretended didn't see them & juz walked away.. Qt bad? I juz didnt feel e need to be known..

Gary & his fwen came? & left aft tt, Gary didnt get a Q. Heee. Cuz he nvr bluff ppl go do survey! Hope his not with angry mi! Weeee..

Junior's. Fairytale. Ending.

Watch Cinderelaa Story! So damn nice & farni! Sowi Rachel & gals! Didnt catch it with u all. Who ask u all pun-seh mi 2nd to go Sentosa! HmpF! Weeee..

This is e part whr she walks down the stairs to attend the Haloween Ball. She looks sooo fairy-talish!(i invented tis word) Didn't know Hilary Duff has such potential to be soo chio.. Heee.. So touched by wad Sam (Hilary Duff) did. I have to believe in myself! To be more ermmm hardworking? Haha. I am soo lying.