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Wednesday, April 20, 2005

Junior. Maxel. Kor. SMS.

"Di this cant go on.. No matter wat happen i will always consider u as my di.. Cos i nv had a god bro b4. Be it younger or older. U r my only didi. I really dun believe anything should even come near 2 spoil our relationship.. I know at times i maybe wrong.. But i need time to learn also. Stop ignorin me.. Tell me if u r unsatisfied with me in anyway n i will change.. This is 2 my 1 n only di junior ang"

"I'm upset whenever u hang up on me.. We used to be so close.. U dunno how i feel n may not be able 2 imagine it.. I can only sms u.. Cos this way.. I'm more assured that u will read.... I miss those days when u always whine on e phone.. Share with me wat happen 2 u.. I may not say it.. But i really appreciate that.. Very much.. Cos it jus shows how close we r.. i miss you.. I nv expect i would say all this.. But if u really jus wan 2 leave me.. Then i wish u all da best 4 your future.. My 1 n only didi.."

Idiot kor.. Make mi cry.. Hmpf..

Its been only a week since we squabbled.. I dunno..

Sometimes i just need to shut ppl out from my life for awhile.. Sometimes i need to distant myself away for awhile..

Maybe tt's y i find it soo hard to talk to you n dear.

The conversation we exchanged is soo freaking awkward.. No longer e close-proximity we shared before..

I do luv u both.. Its just tt one made mi ridiculously angry.. The other made mi freaking upset..

In e end both tell mi tt i mean alot to them.. Then y hurt mi in e 1st place?

PLEASE LISTEN TO JOLIN TSAI'S "DAO DAI"

Maxel Kor u said im real, frank, direct til the bad way..

But tt's wad i am.

I luv u scolding mi n stuff.. But sometimes i really cannot tolerate u e way u deal with things..

I know ure jus gonna say mi also.. Always soo immature abt stuff.. Always anyhow spending money.. Always whining.. Always out for fun.. Always playing..

But isnt tt what u liked abt mi in e 1st place?

Im lyk stil 18?

Sooo much for mi to do.. To see.. To party..

Its e prerogative the 18s enjoy.

Dear isnt my personality tt attracted u?

Im like trying to brainwash myself to lyk answer e phone n talk.. But each time it seemed soo hard.

Soo many things i wanna tell u.. Soo many i luv u to say to u.. But its lyk..

Both of u know very well..

I bear a grudge.

Those tt hurt mi i'll have dis force-shield up.. I won't trust so easily..

Im sorry if im egoistic or wad.. Arrogant.. Selfish.. Wadever.

When it all boils down..

Wat u see is wat u get; No mask No pretense.

I'm for real.

(Maxel kor finally u read my blog.. If u do happen to read it again.. Call mi..)