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Wednesday, May 18, 2005

Junior. Sometimes. Luv. Just. ain't. Enough .

My heartaches alot. It hurts soo much fuckin more den e physical wounds i gt on mi, e bruises, e scratches & e fuckin bites i got from e fuckin Zoo.

It hurts lyk fuckin god knows wad. I dunno im capable of handling such fuckin pain, but it hurts so much jus tinkin of life without u, or e simple thought without u in it.

By now all u fuckers tt's reading my blog will know tt we broke up. His relatives, his mum, his sis fucking screwed us up. No more comments abt this fuckin shit.

I stil luv him. I don fuckin give a fuckin care abt u fuckin ppl tellin mi all e crap/ opinions but i luv him. My heart just fuckin aches.

It fuckin hurts more as each heartbeat pumps blood out.. It fuckin hurts more as i type each fuckin word n more tears jus drips..

Im in a complete loss for words.. Said kinda fuckin stupid stuff to Merci, Jasen Kor n Lester. Haha.. Wad sell myself for money? Haha.. Mayb i would do it.. Its not lyk i nvr done it b4.

Or shld i just fuckin pop sleepin pills n pray i sleep thru dis fuckin chaos.

My mind's really really fogged up now.. Eyes r sooo fuckin red from crying guess it hurts.. But my heart is hurting real real badly..

Tried hammering it to fuckin stop.. But it just goes on n on.. Hurt Hurt Hurt Hurt Hurt.

My sweetest breakup while we ate Tiramisu n cried together, holding hands walking down e rather short stretch from Wisma to Borders..

Ouch. My heart jus fuckin thumped.

Smoking my 2nd pack of cigs. Feeling high, mayb i can smoke enough cigs to give myself a fuckin asthmatic attack n jus fuckin die with 2 black lungs..

I don hate u, i really dont. U loved mi with all ur heart so as i did with mine.

To all e fuckin blog readers which i have here. Leave my bf alone. His e good guy, Fate is e fuckin biatch.

Finally heard Zen ge ge's car horn.

Heading down to China Black.

Mayb i shld jus pick up some random slut n fuck her, or a guy n fuck him, mayb i'll feel much btr.

How can u ask mi to move on when i luv u fuckin so?

Ciao~ Mayb im better off with e thumping music ringin in my ears.

Even e hangover which im gonna fuckin get wont envelope my heartache.

(btw im just gonna totally shut down from everyone. ciao all u ppl. gonna get my LV bag n go *poof*)

I don't wanna lose you,
I don't wanna use you
Just to have somebody by my side.
And I don't wanna hate you.
I don't wanna take you.
But I don't wanna be the one to cry.
That don't really matter to anyone, anymore.
But like a fool I keep losing my place
And I keep seeing you walk through that door.

But there's a danger in loving somebody too much.
And it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust.
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough

Now I could never change you
I don't wanna blame you
Baby you don't have to take the fall
Yes I may have hurt you
But I did not desert you
Maybe I just wanna have it all
It makes a sound like thunder
It makes me feel like the rain
And like a fool who will never see the truth
I keep thinking something's gonna change

But there's a danger in loving somebody too much.
And it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust.
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough

And there's no way home
when it's late at night and you're all alone
Are there things that you wanted to say
Do you feel me beside you in your bed
there beside you where I used to lay
And there's a Danger in Loving somebody too much
And it's sad when you know it's your heart they can't touch.
There's a reason why people don't stay who they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough